How do you make peace with that? How do you make peace with something that keeps you up at night and causes you such heartache, pain, agony, and suffering? How? How do you come to terms with something like that? That never stops. That continuously rips your heart out through your ass. How? I’m begging. How? God knows I wish I knew. He won’t take it from me. How? Why won't you take that from me, God? Why?